What do I want (from life)?

(From 2012, someone asked me this and I wrote it to myself, unread, translated)

My first instinct is to say: be happy. Is that it? Could it be that I would be content if all of a sudden I obtained everything I believe makes me happy, just like that? And whenever I want? All money, any woman, every wish. Something tells me no. That we only value things requiring labour. But besides that: Can it be that only one saciated emotion - happiness - is the most important? What about sadness? And loneliness and nostalgia? And the ups and down of the human experience? Isn't all that the actual thrill of life? Then maybe, the ideal of life is to feel. As much as possible, in all ways, globally. The more refined form of this being self-fulfillment. The objective then [rumination abandoned at this point] (sic, looks like i bored myself with all the sidetracking)