Saturday, November 23, 2013

Live Express Feel pt. 6 - When you see someone do unpredictable things it's the proof both of you exist

Everyone and everything that is or was is made of protons, neutrons and electrons, of unpredictable movement. And we are made of this, of Unpredictability. "I think therefore I am" only proves that you exist, not anyone else. That's what I was thinking as I watched a woman dancing spontaneously to the same music I was hearing. I tried in vain to guess what her next movements were going to be, always being surprised when I thought I had discovered a pattern. She was hopelessly unpredictable. I had to convince myself that she was real, a human with spontaneous thoughts of her own. I knew this from logic from before, but here I felt it, it was undeniable, and I could extend it to all living creatures, and understood part of what it is that attracts us to others, particularly people very similar or very different from us. If I write with my pen I know words will appear as ink on paper, it stirs nothing in my mind. But if I pinch my friend who I think my similar his response will carry an element of unpredictability within the general predictability of what my knowledge of him expects him to do. Conversely, I can also muse on the predictability in the unpredictability of total strangers as I am familiar with general human reactions.
Any "good" feeling becomes eventually boring or banal after repeated exposure, but that another person can disorient you, and only living things and their creations have the ability to consistently confuse, and show you something you would never expect no matter how vast your mind would be, is always appealing. And this is perhaps the greatest lure of human connection: that by interacting with other unpredictables you always find something new about the world, the implication being that, as "the world" is simply "your perception of the world", you are in fact endlessly finding something new about none other than yourself.

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