In This Moment I Only Want Things I Don't Have

(translated from portuguese)

another beer, I shoud have bought wine after all

and a human blanket, to share electrons

The light goes of when it wants, why try to fix it

if she'll fix itself

I'm not exactly in the dark, but it gets dark real fast

and I'm sleepy, I'm skeptic

I don't believe these days have 24 hours

they must've shrunk

I remember days that lasted at least a month

give or take

And I walk from here to there

Now less heavy in my balls,

and I only regret

that it all happens without any fireworks

which didn't exist before either

but (I don't know), there seemed to be.

22:22 (twenty-two and twenty-two)

I put it here so I don't forget time

that I waste re-looking at the same three walls

I almost feel the weight of some body

that should have could have been here

I feel cold but not that much, only the bit that's missing here

once in a while I inhale a bigger breath

to compensate the slight ones I've been taking

that's the one, forgetting to breathe

who would think of that?

here. by the way.

today a mistake woke me up

that's why I'm so tired

great excuse, huh?

In fact, the biggest tragedy of this morning

wasn't that one

I had an expansive dream,

I'm sure it folded into itself 

in layers of abstraction

then I woke up, and there was only sun

I remember trying to write it down

but I didn't have a pen in it