Numbers

It hurts me that at the end of the day it all boils down to just One number, which may or may not be a good one. One of the reasons why I never liked football is that the score at the end of the game is in the order of the units, not dozens or hundreds. True that there's no such thing as luck, but this scale of return for the same amount of work is frustrating, not only for the player but the spectator. The difference between 0 and 1 is immense, the difference between 1 and 3 is immense. And although it's clear the player did his best, and although in a competition it is always clear who played the best, the number is everything, it's what stays, it is solid and unshakable. On second thought, what I'm criticizing is stupid. I don't wish that the world be a constant, that returns be predictable and injective. Minesweeper and Sudoku are irritating precisely because of their lack of randomness. There. I've exposed myself once more. I'm only complaining about stupid little temporary human emotions. I forgot again that I'm a work in progress that paints itself. Even if I wasn't, the master will always fuck up from time to time, even at their period of highest mastery. The difference will merely be that at that time, the ratio between fucking up and creating amazing things is smaller.