• I can become great at anything with my work ethic. If motivated by an exhilarating present endeavor or future exciting situation (rather than some "valuable reward" which doesn't seem to surge much within me) I can drive myself beyond average person's limits and well beyond my own perceived ones.
• I need a lone space, a home base to crawl back to habitually. A home base of which the total conditions are outside my control, meaning shared with others, are frustrating and unproductive for me mentally and physically in the long run. I must reserve the choice that my base is loud, quiet, super-productive or lazy.
• I will "do it for the story". I am willing to invest my earnings,work and time in return for an exciting new experience. However, I will not easily reinvest the same amount for a repeat of the same experience.
• I enjoy learning and figuring things out for myself. On the other hand, my ego still prevents me from stepping out of my comfort zone and ask for help when things are "going smoothly". This is a major weakness that I will have to continuously keep working on.
• Free time is important. Too much free time is unproductive in all aspects and coma-inducing. No free time at all is dangerous and equally unproductive. Productivity, for me, is linked to recurrent periods of "recharging batteries", usually at the home base or alongside diversified company, be it work associates, friends or strangers.
• Financial strain is stress-inducing, which provokes unproductivity, which further again stress and anxiety. These can be countered effectively with preparation (not being especially optimistic while preparing for the worst), frugality (spending as little as possible, which I am able to maximize), and guaranteeing earnings. The last one is sometimes misleading, as sometimes investment is needed to protect the long-run, or like I said before, opening the doors for new experiences.
• I am too much of an individualist, not caring as much as I should for others and focusing exclusively on myself, ironically to my own detriment as this hurts my relationships and opportunities. I have to become more selfless and more focused on making other people achieve their own goals.
• I must follow my passions. I can't not do so. Just like when I quit engineering university in order to stop being miserable. Again it's validated that, unless I'm fueling by fire, I won't be able to sustain persistent activity in any role that is not continuously inspiring. This is tricky because 1) I constantly crave new experiences and 2) The interest in them flutters away after some time. I need to have a process of renewal of experiences, in addition to a collection of activities which I can fall back onto in tandem.
• My energy is magnetizing. A large percentage of "good people" are attracted to me. I hype up people who engage with me. Unfortunately, persistent exposure to me is tiring and annoying, and like I said before, for me persistent company without a home base to fall back to is frustrating. Loneliness is injuring to me, and habitual interactions with people stimulate and release me, make me more indifferent and ultimately increase the quality of said interactions.
• I can never go into an endeavor knowingly unprepared. The perfect situation in the perfect timing can be anxiety-building because of lack of preparation to minute detail. I have to be aware of this and guarantee I am never in this position. This implies not succumbing to laziness to pursue information.
• I must read more. Specifically success, management, business and life literature. I have to know more about the practical world I live in in order to manipulate it rather than be consumed by it. Also comes down to being prepared.
• I must be surrounded by people who enrich me, unrelated to people who merely comfort me.
• Company of women is important to me. Looking back, in every single plan I made and in my day-to-day life, liaisons with women are a priority, that tells how important it is to me. I can go without them only with the promise of abundance later. I am frustrated that in this previous year there wasn't abundance of it, and I remember how calm and happy I was inthe relative abundance of the year before. Even if this is temporary, another exciting experience, I must know that it is a priority for me and I must have free time and a home base to complement it.
• I am good with money, I know how to minimize spending to the absolute necessary if required, I have the control to not spend it, and can on any budget maximize my earnings. Still, I must take care to maintain this philosophy as income and expenses rise. I must have a source of income so that I can plan ahead, though it may have to be a day job deal so that I can continuously educate myself and plan ahead.
• I am resourceful and unshameful, that means I can get myself out of a lot of situations without letting pride get in the way.
• I have to strive to become my uncle. I pay for everyone's meal, I run the show, I got everyone's back. I can afford to pay surgery for my dog, like he could, for example.
• I need a reason greater than reality.
• I know how easy and fast it is to scale to great heights. I am completely aware of how I am in total control of my mobility. I can be wherever I want to be.
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