Freedom / Questions / Concerns

Freedom is not waking up every day with a knot in my chest. Spending the day doing something I love, and being able to buy the things I really need. • I will forever be in a panic. I have to have a business, as long as I don't I've been reeducated to know that I am doomed. But what if I don't want to? Could it be that I like being an employee? Don't I like to be in charge? I used to think I did, lately I'm not so sure. If I go on a soulsearching trip, am I just wasting time, avoiding the confrontation? He used to say "where he'll be in five years". It was extravagant. Do I need that? I don't mean to rationalize, but do I really? What do I need? Two opposites: A home base and mobility. Easily attainable I'm guessing. How easy though is it to obtain a mobile home base? • Some concerns: I lack leadership. Money is haunting, how to start a business? I like connecting to people and being soft. I'm afraid I'll get sucked into another job. I have a fear of postponing.