I want to Be in a Movie

I want my life to be a movie, not "like" a movie, but an actual movie, not a TV show where things seem to be happening but actually stay the same, but a movie, like the word says, "movie", it's moving. I go from a place and a time and a state, stuff happens, stuff that changes the initial coordinates that make returning irreversible, and then I arrive at an place, time and state so opposite that the origin seems impossible. Like wood turning to fire turning to ashes. • Once I saw a billboard for some women's shampoo saying: "Do everything as if you're always being contemplated". I've had an audience ever since, be it me, people around, people not around, the Big Other, You. And that's where I'd like to be always, on stage, a scene in my movie.